Please tell me what you think!

Hello life,
Did you make it harder for me because you disliked me?
The times i faced
the decisions i made
Where to benefit me
But that didn't workout well
I have theses thoughts
They course through my brain
in my vain
Making me hurt me
I followed the rules
But every time it made me think of the afterlife
I don't belong here
But maybe i do
It life decisions right?
I loved
I hated
Now i don't know
What happened to me
Don't make ma a monster like you
You broke me
Now i will break you.
When i leave you shall feel sorrow
For the thing you made me go through.